Monday, December 17, 2007

I miss my Mother and my friend Thelma

I've already had a good cry sitting here scanning her pictures into my computer and listening to her favorite music. Los Hermanos Silva, Cri Cri, Juan Gabriel and I've even got a few Joselito (when he was a boy). There were others. These are just what I have in my computer.
It's the holidays that remind me of her and it's still hard to get through them without her. She encouraged me to do my art and whatever I felt a passion for. There are other people I know who miss her company. She was a good listener and confidant. 

The empty feeling hurts. 

I'm going to have her Rosary here in our home in February.

I've also been thinking about my friend Thelma. 

She always called me at Christmas to wish me and my family a Merry Christmas. I think of Thelma everyday too. I used to call her to ask her advice on "issues", and she always had a lot to offer. Now, I just pray and talk to both Thelma and my mother when I'm uncomfortable about something. It helps. Funny, I don't remember Thelma ever playing any music when I visited her. So I have no music to remind me of her. Instead it's nature.
She loved the trees with purple flowers. She loved honeydew melon, chutney and raisin bread. 

Merry Christmas Thelma.

This post was a bit of a downer. Yeah, I could easily picture the old me with a bottle of Jack and listening to Lady Day. All by myself. Look on the bright side...I don't drink anymore and so I'm not depressed all the time. I just have my moments of sadness.


  1. I still remember the year your mom made me green chile tamales cause i didn't eat meat ones. That meant something to me. She was a sweet lady. As for Thelma, give her a soundtrack. I sometimes think of songs that remind me of people so I give them soundtracks, a mix tape if you will.

  2. Thank you Mary Lou.
    For reminding me how she did try to make tamales for everyone's taste. There was always a way for everything. I can do it attitude.

    A soundtrack is a great idea. It'll be fun to think of songs for her. I'm going to try it.

    You should be getting your Christmas card today. Merry Christmas!

  3. I don't think there is a day that I don't think of her or see something that reminds me of her. sometimes I see something and my eyes well up for no reason.

  4. You two were funny. It was so funny to see you sitting on her lap when you were a grown man. The smile and love she had for you was beaming.