Sunday, December 5, 2010

Is that all there is?


I've just finished putting my mother-in-law to bed.
One hour went by in the restroom.
I apologize to her because I have to clean her.
Is this something she does not remember a few minutes later- I think.
She thanks me. I'm sorry and at the same time I'm humbled.

I say to myself...I can do this...I can do this...I can do this.

A list:
The smell of stagnant water
Wipes
Liquid Soap
Night Time Depends
Gloves
Layers of clothes
Raining outside
My Cave
A bottle of boooooooze sounds goooooooooooooood about now.
AA cake
My commitment..
4th step
5th step
Everyone is asleep and I am not ready to turn out the lights.
Not yet.
Smell gone away.
A second list:
Lysol